Saturday, January 1, 2011

Give me 18.

There may be a few blatant cliches in my poem below. In fact, it reminds me of a Taylor Swift song. However, I have always felt a sort of desperate nostalgia associated with my freshman year of college. Regardless of how many great moments I've had since then, I feel that it will always carry a strange magic.

Give me 18, give me
recklessness and ignorance.
Late nights, bike rides, 
the last summer - 
or the first -
of freedom.
Relationships starting, or
ending
too late. 
Self-assured and unhindered.
New friends, jumping
in fountains and
climbing on roofs.

Breathing deeply, too greedy,
not realizing it'd be gone too soon.

First we live for 21 then
for marriage
and conception.
Why? We push
towards adulthood
then towards middle age.
Full time, no time.
As if the air where
we dwell
is too thin. 

What do we give up to
lead our quiet lives whispering
Entrapment?

Give me 18
Too many friends to hold onto
for long, too many
days awake and
Swimming with bird song, with
A Universe hum.

I was alotted my time
but it's gone.

3 comments:

Amanda said...

I know I'm late, but I just now read this. I feel very similarly. I miss that summer right before college where we hung out a lot and had no worries. Now you're married. I graduated and have too many jobs to count. Life just is never going to be as carefree. I guess it just shows us to thoroughly enjoy our time now. Because I don't want to look back at 40 and wish I had stopped to enjoy it more.

Leah Wise said...

thanks for reading! i occasionally get in a hopelessly nostalgic mood about that time. but we'll be fine.

Anonymous said...

I just reread this and it made me a little teary-eyed.

Mom