Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Motives
Lately, I've been reading a blog called The Search (the link is on my blog list) by this guy who's written for Relevant magazine.
I was particularly struck by his commentary on Christian Hipster culture. It's ridiculous that churches and individuals within the church feel that they must live up to some visual standard of "cool" to disguise the perceived un-hipness of Christianity in modern culture. I know this, I feel this, I scowl and shake my head. But where do my motives lie?
Because I want people to think I'm cool. I listen to obscure bands, blog, splatter paint, and read murder mysteries. I rely on my quirkiness to attract others to me. It's not that I choose my hobbies to suit others' tastes, because I truly enjoy the things I do. But at the same time, I market myself and my interests out of selfish, compliment-seeking motives.
Maybe it's the pervasive social networking culture. We've been so brainwashed into typing and retyping lists of our hobbies, interests, activities, and quirks that we think that these things define us. And that mindset has gone so far as to mar our understanding of Christianity. Subconsciously we think that Christ can't draw people to him on His own and that the fruits of the Spirit aren't enough. We've got to market ourselves. We've got to provide a hip facade or people won't like Christians. In reality though, it seems far more likely that the facade is becoming more important than the matter underneath.
A few months ago, I was passionate about starting a house church, singing songs to acoustic strums, living like a hippie. Because I thought this was spiritual awakening. But what I question now is whether I was just immersed in the concept of making my brand of Christianity cool. I do feel like the church, at least as it stands in my neck of the woods, is weak, hidebound in a pattern of awkward and ineffective traditions and convictions. But real change can't happen if it's done in an effort to be marketable. Like the blog says in it's conclusion, maybe Christianity has stood the test of time because it's not cool. Because it's authentic.
And maybe Christians draw people to them simply by being authentic themselves.
I was particularly struck by his commentary on Christian Hipster culture. It's ridiculous that churches and individuals within the church feel that they must live up to some visual standard of "cool" to disguise the perceived un-hipness of Christianity in modern culture. I know this, I feel this, I scowl and shake my head. But where do my motives lie?
Because I want people to think I'm cool. I listen to obscure bands, blog, splatter paint, and read murder mysteries. I rely on my quirkiness to attract others to me. It's not that I choose my hobbies to suit others' tastes, because I truly enjoy the things I do. But at the same time, I market myself and my interests out of selfish, compliment-seeking motives.
Maybe it's the pervasive social networking culture. We've been so brainwashed into typing and retyping lists of our hobbies, interests, activities, and quirks that we think that these things define us. And that mindset has gone so far as to mar our understanding of Christianity. Subconsciously we think that Christ can't draw people to him on His own and that the fruits of the Spirit aren't enough. We've got to market ourselves. We've got to provide a hip facade or people won't like Christians. In reality though, it seems far more likely that the facade is becoming more important than the matter underneath.
A few months ago, I was passionate about starting a house church, singing songs to acoustic strums, living like a hippie. Because I thought this was spiritual awakening. But what I question now is whether I was just immersed in the concept of making my brand of Christianity cool. I do feel like the church, at least as it stands in my neck of the woods, is weak, hidebound in a pattern of awkward and ineffective traditions and convictions. But real change can't happen if it's done in an effort to be marketable. Like the blog says in it's conclusion, maybe Christianity has stood the test of time because it's not cool. Because it's authentic.
And maybe Christians draw people to them simply by being authentic themselves.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Adventures
Goals.
1. Study abroad Summer '09
2. Go on a road trip around the country
3. Go camping in the Smoky Mts. Spring Break '09
4. Live in Germany
5. Visit Paris and small villages in France
6. Learn French, Hebrew, and German
7. Visit every major art museum
8. Go to Alaska
9. Swim with dolphins
10. See Ingrid Michaelson, Jon McLaughlin, and Switchfoot live
11. Volunteer at a soup kitchen
12. Donate to a charity
13. Never borrow money from the bank
14. Sing at a wedding
15. Love people
16. Be in a local theatrical production
17. Learn an instrument well
18. Start a church
19. Write a book
20. Be a part of a selfless relationship
1. Study abroad Summer '09
2. Go on a road trip around the country
3. Go camping in the Smoky Mts. Spring Break '09
4. Live in Germany
5. Visit Paris and small villages in France
6. Learn French, Hebrew, and German
7. Visit every major art museum
8. Go to Alaska
9. Swim with dolphins
10. See Ingrid Michaelson, Jon McLaughlin, and Switchfoot live
11. Volunteer at a soup kitchen
12. Donate to a charity
13. Never borrow money from the bank
14. Sing at a wedding
15. Love people
16. Be in a local theatrical production
17. Learn an instrument well
18. Start a church
19. Write a book
20. Be a part of a selfless relationship
Into the Wilderness of Today
"They were sitting/They were sitting on the strawberry swing/Every moment was so precious ... People moving all the time/Inside a perfectly straight line/Don't you wanna curve away?/When it's such/It's such a perfect day/It's such a perfect day." (Coldplay)
"To the desert go prophets and hermits; through deserts go pilgrims and exiles. Here the leaders of the great religions have sought the therapeutic and spiritual values of retreat, not to escape but to find reality." (Paul Shepherd, Man in the Landscape)
"No man ever followed his genius till it misled him. Though the result were bodily weakness, yet perhaps no one can say that the consequences were to be regretted, for these were a life in conformity to higher principles. If the day and the night are such that you greet them with joy, and life emits a frangrance like flowers and sweet-scented herbs, is more elastic, is more starry, more immortal, - that is your success. All nature is your congratulation, and you have cause momentarily to bless yourself. The greatest gains and values are farthest from being appreciated. We easily come to doubt if they exist. We soon forget them. They are the highest reality. ... The true harvest of my daily life is somewhat as intangible and indescribable as the tints of the morning and evening. It is a little star-dust caught, a segment of the rainbow which I have clutched." (Henry David Thoreau, Walden, or Life in the Woods)
"To the desert go prophets and hermits; through deserts go pilgrims and exiles. Here the leaders of the great religions have sought the therapeutic and spiritual values of retreat, not to escape but to find reality." (Paul Shepherd, Man in the Landscape)
"No man ever followed his genius till it misled him. Though the result were bodily weakness, yet perhaps no one can say that the consequences were to be regretted, for these were a life in conformity to higher principles. If the day and the night are such that you greet them with joy, and life emits a frangrance like flowers and sweet-scented herbs, is more elastic, is more starry, more immortal, - that is your success. All nature is your congratulation, and you have cause momentarily to bless yourself. The greatest gains and values are farthest from being appreciated. We easily come to doubt if they exist. We soon forget them. They are the highest reality. ... The true harvest of my daily life is somewhat as intangible and indescribable as the tints of the morning and evening. It is a little star-dust caught, a segment of the rainbow which I have clutched." (Henry David Thoreau, Walden, or Life in the Woods)
Monday, July 7, 2008
Modern Nature
Oh, what a world this life would be/Forget all your technicolour dreams/Forget modern nature/This is how it´s meant to be. (Modern Nature, Sondre Lerche)
Just finished reading The Diving Bell and the Butterfly. What hope and simple eloquence Jean-Dominique Bauby managed to grace his readers with in spite of locked-in syndrome, a condition that essentially trapped his healthy brain in a paralyzed, decaying body. He wrote by painstakingly blinking his left eye, spelling out words with a special alphabet.
There is such joy in simplicity, in valuing the most simple and mundane events. Driving down a road. Coincidences. A smile or laughter among friends and strangers alike. Fragments of the thread of life that connect humanity in all its frivolous drama. Things that encourage us to fly by grounding us in the poetry of reality.
Yesterday at church I went to the alter. But words failed me, no understandable ideas were forming. Only a yearning. And after searching through Psalms for the phrase "One thing I ask," I found Psalm 27 this morning:
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life...
Dwell. I desire ONE thing alone, to dwell with God. Not work, speak, sing, praise, act, stress, agonize, laugh, or weep. Dwell. That word connotes contentment, peace, an inner joy not found in any frantic action or confused pondering. My desire is to do for God by dwelling with Him. That closeness. If that is the yearning of the deepest part of myself, it is no wonder I am discontent apart from Him.
I don't understand. I don't get it. But I must dwell. Live life. Cherish every tear, whether born of laughter or of grief. Because I dwell with Him, I see His beauty radiate in the literary genre that is the human experience.
Just finished reading The Diving Bell and the Butterfly. What hope and simple eloquence Jean-Dominique Bauby managed to grace his readers with in spite of locked-in syndrome, a condition that essentially trapped his healthy brain in a paralyzed, decaying body. He wrote by painstakingly blinking his left eye, spelling out words with a special alphabet.
There is such joy in simplicity, in valuing the most simple and mundane events. Driving down a road. Coincidences. A smile or laughter among friends and strangers alike. Fragments of the thread of life that connect humanity in all its frivolous drama. Things that encourage us to fly by grounding us in the poetry of reality.
Yesterday at church I went to the alter. But words failed me, no understandable ideas were forming. Only a yearning. And after searching through Psalms for the phrase "One thing I ask," I found Psalm 27 this morning:
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life...
Dwell. I desire ONE thing alone, to dwell with God. Not work, speak, sing, praise, act, stress, agonize, laugh, or weep. Dwell. That word connotes contentment, peace, an inner joy not found in any frantic action or confused pondering. My desire is to do for God by dwelling with Him. That closeness. If that is the yearning of the deepest part of myself, it is no wonder I am discontent apart from Him.
I don't understand. I don't get it. But I must dwell. Live life. Cherish every tear, whether born of laughter or of grief. Because I dwell with Him, I see His beauty radiate in the literary genre that is the human experience.
Oh the glory of friendship
There is no feeling that matches that of being the object of a giant group hug you've earned for just for being alive, glasses pressing against your face, a tangle of arms sprawled in all directions.
At the New Way concert last night, I fully expected to burst into tears, to miss the singing, the worship experience, even the work. But I discovered, to my surprise, that I missed nothing of the framework of New Way. I just missed the people. I adore them, respect them, and want so much to encourage them. The capacity we have to care for one another after less than three weeks of day to day contact and over a span of an entire year is profound. God blessed me immensely by leading me to such intelligent, funny, Christ-like, and immensely talented individuals.
So what I yearn for is not New Way so much as the ability to spend time with the 11 remaining members of New Way 2007.
At the New Way concert last night, I fully expected to burst into tears, to miss the singing, the worship experience, even the work. But I discovered, to my surprise, that I missed nothing of the framework of New Way. I just missed the people. I adore them, respect them, and want so much to encourage them. The capacity we have to care for one another after less than three weeks of day to day contact and over a span of an entire year is profound. God blessed me immensely by leading me to such intelligent, funny, Christ-like, and immensely talented individuals.
So what I yearn for is not New Way so much as the ability to spend time with the 11 remaining members of New Way 2007.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
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