Consumption Addiction.

I have a literal shoe addiction. I am drawn into shoe aisles and shoe stores by some metaphysical entity. I try on every pair I see. I buy shoes every time I go shopping. Thanks to Mary, I now recognize that I tend to buy jeans I don't want, need, or even like, compulsively.  I always felt that I managed my money fairly well. I'm not in debt, I can pay for gas and spontaneous trips to Starbucks. But I'm not spending wisely and I can't seem to figure out how to alter my spending habits in the long run. I've gone on spending fasts that work, but like trendy diet plans, once the fast ends, my spending goes back to normal. 

I want to buy clothes, shoes, and accessories in a way that isn't lavish or excessive. To scope out what I need or want and then sit on my decision until I can be sure its a wise choice. I think it must be possible to own fewer than 30 pairs of shoes and still look good, to buy a few jeans that actually fit and wear them for at least a year. 

I feel convicted, like its actually a hindrance to my reliance on God, a distraction from pursuing things that really matter. I need to buckle down, give some shoes away, live on the plenty I already have. It may seem trivial, but it's a hard sacrifice. I'm lucky, I'm blessed, and I need to start living with gratitude instead of unquenchable desire for the material. 

Feel free to comment with your own struggles or suggestions.